Storm Before the Storm

I said too much again
Words are falling out of my hands
Looking at me kindly, but
Truth hurts so much less than lying


Tell me that i’m complete,
But complete doesn’t warm my bed
Say that i’ll be Ok
There’s no one asking if I am


Did I say too much
Or finally said enough
Should have kept it all inside my head
Gave you honesty
And made myself a liability
I’m sorry that I let you in again


I talk when I should wait
And every word’s a sharpened blade
Pointed at my chest
Can you love me or lay me down to rest


Tell me that i’m complete,
But complete doesn’t hold my hand
Say that i’ll be ok
But no one else can understand


Did I say too much
Or finally said enough
Should have kept it all inside my head
Gave you honesty
And made myself a liability
I’m sorry that I let you in again


I need you to know
What you mean to me
Even if it make you go
I couldn't leave it unsaid
Maybe if I was smarter
I’d keep it all inside my head 
I know that its all my fault
I’m sorry that I let you in again


Mmm, did I say too much
Or finally said enough
Should have kept it all inside my head
Gave you honesty, and
Made myself a liability
I’m sorry that I let you in again

Feelings grow, I know your ride is here
Hold them in to say goodbye
Little do you know
What you mean to me
This is just the price I pay cause


I didn't want to push myself onto you
Didn’t want to be alone
I see that when you said you loved me 
You were talking about somebody else
But nothings changed for me so
Now I have to try to love you less
Somehow


If I woke up inside a different dimension
I’d run to you and do this all again
Even when I
Even when I am cynical
I can feel it
I can feel it when something’s good
In the moonlight 
In the moonlight so magical
Now you're gone and 
The sky’s so heavy
Stars look like they're falling
How are you gonna move on like we're nothing?
Words in my throat
Choking my slow
Everytime I try to love I end up broken


I didn't want to push myself onto you
I didn’t want to be alone
I see that when you said you loved me 
You were talking about somebody else
But nothings changed for me so
Now I have to try to love you less
Love you less


Heart beats out
Of my chest 
But I try my best 
To love you less
Tears fall down
But I try my best 
To love you less


I hate that someone else will die with you
I sit here alone and now I see
That when you said you loved me 
You were talking about somebody else
But nothings changed for me so
Now I have to try to love you less
Somehow

This is the bed you made, I’m sorry that I slept in it
You can find me on the ground, staring up at the ceiling
What happens if you don't give your kids an education?
Made a bomb and set it, wonder why it has exploded
And my family asks
What's going on
But they don't 
Listen to my songs


This too shall pass
And its true but I cant
Stay here so I say
This too shall pass away


Don’t have it in me to hear another no, feels like everything that is bad
Has formed into a cloud and is raining into my lap
So tell me if, is it even a call?
A call for help
If no one hears me fall


This too shall pass
And its true but I cant
Stay here so I say
This too shall pass away

Needed meaning and you felt it
I cant help it I look desperate
I never wanted to be a burden
Never thought how much it would hurt there’s a
Hole inside my chest,
Of a man who knows no meaning 
You saw me purposeless 
And left me dreaming


You’re my religion my muse 
And I submit to you as I break into 
Pieces of something that looks
Like it used to be me, oh and
I don’t mind to be used 
Because I used to have a home in you
But now all I have is me and the truth 
And whatever you need


Everytime I try to play cool then i’m
Losing myself in you
Can’t
Help
Reaching
Into
Something
That
Is
Always
New
There's a hole inside my chest,
Of a man who lost all feeling 
You saw me purposeless 
And left me screaming


You’re my religion my muse 
And I submit to you as I break into 
Pieces of something that looks
Like it used to be me, oh and
I don’t mind to be used 
Because I used to have a home in you
But now all I have is me, the truth 
And whatever you need


Can I be honest if I'm missing you?
Can I be honest? Can I be,
Can I be honest if you're the best thing
Has that ever happened to me?


You’re my religion my muse 
And I submit to you as I break into 
Pieces of something that looks
Like it used to be me, oh and
I don’t mind to be used 
Because I used to have a home in you
But now all I have is me, the truth 
And whatever you need
Can I be honest if I'm missing you?
Can I be honest? Can I be,
Can I be honest
But now all I have is me and the truth 
And whatever you need

What if I've outgrown my life
While I'm still alive
I've applied for every job
But the job is mine
I know I just want to escape
But you're the only place
Where my sadness dissipates
Floating in summer haze


Can you be the proof
That this life isn't living me
Can you be the proof
That I mean something to somebody
Can I count on you
Can you be the proof
Got nothing left to do in this life
All I want is you but you wont be mine


Will you judge when I admit
I’m due for a hit
A hit of your transcendent love
Which you have none to give
Please just leave me here to die
There’s no hope if i’m deprived of you 
And you let me down everytime


Can you be the proof
That this life isn't living me
Can you be the proof
That I mean something to somebody
Can I count on you
Can you be the proof
Got nothing left to lose in this life
All I want is you but you wont be mine


If you let me down again
Please do it into the ground
And say here lies a man 
Who wanted you more then life
No he didn't have a chance
He could not have survived
Say it had to end 
Tell them you're the reason why


You couldn't be the proof
That this life isn't leaving me
You couldn't be the proof
That I mean something to somebody
I could not count on you
You could not be the proof
Got nothing left to lose in this life
All I want is you but you wont be mine

I wanna let somebody in
After all i've done 
I’m between the heaven and the earth 
Have I forgotten what I’m looking for
Hey bro, if you want to date yourself
Then get a clone, or get into something else
But they don't understand
So I call you up again


And you, you were cute all 
But you believe that the earth is flat
And you, hate the truth and I 
Love you but cannot live with that
You, you were cute all 
But you believe that the earth is flat
And you, hate the truth and I 
Love you but cannot live with that


After all we’re in the same place now
I should let you in my bed
But my north star points at Davids
And you hate that I am wearing red
Hey bro, if you want to date yourself
Then get a clone, soon there will be no one left
They don't understand
So I call you up again


And you, you were cute all 
But you believe that the earth is flat
And you, hate the truth and I 
Love you but cannot live with that
You, you were cute all 
But you believe that the earth is flat
And you, hate the truth and I 
Love you but cannot live with that


Chase me but run from the truth
Then i’m picky, i’m hard to please
Up in space, with your eyes closed
I’m picky, the problem is me
Oh, if you don't understand the world 
Tell me how you're going to understand me


You, you were cute all 
But you believe that the earth is flat
And you, hate the truth and I 
Love you but cannot live with that

Saying that you love me, saying that you love me the same
But I'm looking in the mirror, looking in the mirror again
You could say a hundred words that'll fall right through
Cracks in my chest


If I could be one thing in this life I'd choose
To be good enough for you
And suddenly it's five PM
In an old hotel and I can't help
The way I see myself around you


Saying that you love me, saying that you love me the same
But I'm looking in the mirror, looking in the mirror again


You can flood me with your light
But nothing will hide what I see in me
And I wonder when you'll see that I am just a monster
Underneath the bridge of your embrace
Covered in arrows, a freak in the shadows


Saying that you love me, saying that you love me the same
But I'm looking in the mirror, looking in the mirror again


Oh the fragile pendulum
I cling to you and you push me away
Every swing we take is proof
I won't be good enough, good enough
On the outside looking in
I wish to be like you but we're not the same
I want to be wanted by you
But I won't be good enough, good enough


Saying that you love me, saying that you love me the same
But I'm looking in the mirror, looking in the mirror again
Saying that you love me, saying that you love me the same

Leave it be
What does it all mean
What does it all mean
I try to see
The best in everything
But I lost a part of me


There’s a chernobyl inside my abdomen and i’m glowing
I already felt radioactive before this
Maybe that's why I push people away
Maybe that’s why I push them away


Why me?
Why beat a man that's down
I was already on my way out
Nothing will be the same 
And I would return 
If I knew where I had been 
I don't know where I've been 


There’s a chernobyl inside my abdomen and i’m glowing
I already felt radioactive before this
Maybe that's why I push people away
Maybe that’s why I push them away


I didn't know who I was before this
Now I am no one at all
Life and death are marked on my skin 
As I hit the bottom once more


There’s a chernobyl inside my abdomen and i’m glowing
I already felt radioactive before this
Maybe that's why I push people away
Maybe that’s why I push them away